Happy days are here at last,
As I see my life shinning.
It's been so long in coming,
That I have forgotten
And am remorsefull.
I do not know why,
I have such sad feelings.
Maybe it's just the way I am,
And I can't think anything else.
Every once in a while,
My past haunts me,
And I start to feel depressed again,
As I remember all those bad times.
But now my life is different,
And I no longer need that time.
I look forward to a better life,
And know that I'm alright.
I look upon my life,
As it is right now,
And I know it is better
Than the first half I knew.
I was abused as a child,
And could not forgive.
God helped me to see,
And now I almost understand.
So when I say ugly things,
To people I love and cherish,
I do not mean it really,
It's just the past creeping in.
I try very hard every day,
To see the best in every thing.
I must make myself do this,
Or I might become insane.
I do not want to end up,
Like so many other people.
I want to see the sunshine,
Of life, love and happiness.
I want to be joyfull,
And full of expectations.
I want to dream good things,
And not remember the bad.
by Jann Newland
(copyright ~ Nov. 2002)
