"Am I Just One"

Days go by And years drag on. It seems a total mess As fare as I'm concerned. I look at my life As I grow older, And it doesn't seem fair And also feels wrong. Sometimes I feel alone On this planet Earth; That I don't belong And it feels like a dream. Or maybe it's a nightmare In which I am only one, And everybody around me Is a figment of my imagination. The aire I breathe and smell, The people I see and things I feel; Are they imaginary Or are they real? I don't cry when I should And I don't know what love really is. So am I here or just dreaming? Is everying around me real or fake? I look around me And I connot feel. Does that mean That it's not real? I believe in God And I know He cares. But He keeps saying "no" To most of my prayers. So I wonder if I'm real, Or if I am alone; Is everything around me Say that I am just one. by Jann Newland ©December 2009